Bea's Stuff

i am back from the dead. except not really. just wanted to have an entry in here that wasn't from that 2 week period in july. really ive been swimming in lesson plans and 1st grader germs and havent had much time to be a person since july. BUT i am just as alive and ornery as ever, and i swear i will update this site at least by... january

i was so sure that i was done working on this site for now, since it's pretty much complete in its current state besides some minor fixes and tweaks. plus work starts back up in 2 weeks, so now is really not a good time for me to be starting any big new projects...

HOWEVER. the other night i got a random idea in my head for a hypothetical redesign and promptly stayed up till like 3 in the morning putting ideas together. so i think i'm doing it anyway? it'll probably be hard to see, but this is the draft of what my new homepage would look like:

obviously this is a VERY different vibe than my current site, and i will have to redo literally all of the pages since my vomit-pink layout won't look good or work logistically with this plan. but honestly, the explosive strawberry diarrhea that is my site now was mostly random. i like pink, and i definitely like cute things, but the current theme and layout is just the first thing i came up with when i was messing around in css the first time.

were i to represent my irl vibe more accurately on my site (which would be cool), it would look a lot more like the image above. i love ugly floral, creepy dolls, goodwill grandma-style decor, dead flowers, and CLUTTER ON CLUTTER. it will probably take 3.2 million years for me to actually implement a full redesign but im excited anyway

my first real post on here is to introduce my cats because they are precious and everyone should know them.

my older son is a 20lb, 8yo longhair named Po. he is a menace. he spends most of his time snoring loudly, antagonizing me to give him food, or antagonizing his brother just for existing. but he's been with me since right after i moved out of my mom's house at 18, and despite what an ass he is i can't really imagine life without him.

my younger son is newman. he is a mischievous little sugar lump who will turn two in october. he's the kind of cat that has to be involved in EVERYTHING i'm doing. following me from room to room, sitting on my keyboard while i type, diving into the sheets when i make the bed, sitting in the chair across from me when i eat…everything. lately i've had to keep a spray bottle with me in the bathroom because otherwise he will literally sit on the back of the toilet while im tryna take a dump 💀

ok so i got sort of embarrassed by how personal and depressing most of the posts on this blog were, so i deleted them all and am now going to change tactics and write about positive things like hobbies and mundane life updates. i am choosing NOT to see this as me being shallow and disingenuous, but rather trying to be the change i want to see or some shit. i may still occasionally rant about feminism and my job and such, but i will try to keep it more brief and less fatalistic. also imma put pictures in here. you're welcome! ₍ᐢ. ̫.ᐢ₎